Now Serene, Now Solitary: Three poems by Anam Tariq

Photo: Karan Madhok

‘I run up to place this piece / where the descending snow / spirals into patterns / of stars and visual poetry’

- Anam Tariq

Distractions 

 

You’ll find me right now

by a warm, drab fire seated

in a dimly-lit drawing room—

a quiet, Little Women setting

minus the hubbub,

cosily uneasy, as this pen lingers

for this winter to be over.

Till then I write this.

A little haggard I am

like the hedgehogs and squirrels

at a tedious year’s end.

A replenishment is there yet

in picking the gold from the grot,

even winter a hope heralds

an imagery puts on (for my epistle),

out the window I see

in the dark a spotless carpet of snow

glimmering everywhere,

peace walks down that bosky

pathway that runs through the town,

bundled humans to the hearth

of their homesteads hurtle.

 

I think back to you

and the serendipity

that gave me you

and I found my niche.

Poesy, you are to me as a child is

to its mother, an enigma not  

as dear to others as it is to her.

My mouthpiece—your verses

inherited by me from those before me,

a word game where all win,

a different language.

 

I thought you would tarry

but a blank firmament I see now

with no more stars left

to cheer this winter monotony

to become a words’ ridge

on my paper. I’m empty

of you, waiting for a second act

to you and me, another season

of our couplet that can be.

 

Meanwhile, this repose coaxes you

and brings new distractions to me.

I run up to place this piece

where the descending snow

spirals into patterns

of stars and visual poetry

and perhaps tomorrow there’ll be

a lot of snow to sweep.


*

 

Green was the Colour

 

You and I were the Green candidates

of the literature department investigating the green

growth in the not so green age

looking for green solutions

in the green literature.

We were green novices like the burgeoning greens

but ours was a bond as green as memory

of the bereaved one till it turned into a green

gash, sewn with a thread green and needle pale

as I managed to put on a pink face

flashing green-ashen shades of yore.

 

 

The Sea, Me, and Ambivalence

/æmˈbɪvələns/: n. the state of having two opposite feelings

Chirpy yellow, princess pink, sky blue houses lined– 

a team of footballers, the first line of defence,

iron-railed balconies—the crown of mankind

overlooking the sandy, sundering border

and the kingdom of the teal deep stretching

its bod, drawing a line, desperate to be disparate

from the white stroked blue on the other side–     

its brother rising above them all; four angles forming.

 

Food ’n fruit baskets, day parties, kids boasting

sea and shore in their courtyards.

The wan and wooden pier becomes a ‘lighthouse’

to the heroine of a story seeking her love

that the currents swept out. Simply seeming

‘by the shore resting baby whale’ to these eyes.

Swims, out in the middle, a buoy

measuring the sea’s ambivalence.

 

From time to time the waves curl up

to meet the shore, their white foamy flowers

offering themselves, yet ending with  

the sandy friend’s damp besmearing.

They put on at times a sprightly dance

while the music’s set to high tide,

yet with a bawl crash the same waves

when the heart sinks too low.

 

Gals over its kingdom out there ride,

ships pass through it, travelling from and to mankind,

a bridge and boon yet in adversarial fits

devours or leaves supine. What’s out there

they diversely define, like cosily fitting jigsaw

puzzle pieces, into each other spilling

aptly intertwining hues, some know a palette whose

yellow-orange oil paints bleed into the sea and sky,

 

know some the flower bunch

growing underdeep, the coral beauty we dearly need

yet oft with the weather the water kingdom conspires,

borrowing a forbidding fury of thunder and the gale

atop which reign the waves—also something known.

While the Carolina creeks lulled Kya to sleep

yet a thing she always craved, after calm when came

a cloudburst of solitude.

 

At the shore as one stands, it’s water yet not water:

something potable, see through taken as water,

the not potable, see through liquid

of the deep. I see, as I say, I am one

with the sea as it bathes me down

in its elliptical, untrammelled uncertainty:

uncertainty as in—it’s now a friend, now a foe;

now high, now low; now soothing, now raging;

 

now serene, now solitary.

A coin with two opposite sides

this sea is, as ambivalent I am with wanting,

then not wanting—to indite, to do, to go someplace

and perhaps to pair.

As I take the deep in my embrace,

as shadows of the homesteads out to the water reach,

the kids go in, leaving the lambent locale and salty eyes to me. 

*** 

Anam Tariq is a poet, writer, book reviewer with an MA in English and a poetry collection A Leaf upon a Book (Leadstart, 2022) to her name. She is currently running The Wordsridge Newsletter on Substack and is a writer for Writers’ Cafeteria. Anam’s poems appear in several lit. mags and anthologies like The Punch Magazine, New Reader Magazine, The Alipore Post, LiveWire, Spill Words, Lived Collective, Verse of Silence, etc. You can find her on Instagram: @anam.tariq_ or her website: www.anamtariq.in.

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